In Search of Your Own Light....

Recently I found myself standing quietly in introspection at the brink of life transition of my life . My father was hospitalised battling with his ill health & my son stepping into his chosen professional course for career in medicine . With my father still in hospital , finally the day arrived for my son to leave family to join medical college in different city . I left with no choice here at this transition but to stay inert & thoughtless . I remained with my father silently watching my son to leave our house to make & shape his own life . I never anticipated this ,all would happen this way .

During such time you have no option but tobe just silent observer - watching your both generations , previous & next taking their own path that their destiny that is leading them as I stand in the middle of it . You yourself do what your best can do for both of them with some sense of helplessness. How anxious & restless we remain throughout our life preparing ourselves for such junctures ? . And if they happen to coincide, we become speechless & reactionless as if some thing is slipping away from your hand about which you can do nothing much . You found yourself absolutely unprepared with no choice but let it happen with no control whatsoever. I wonder all our life why we keep struggling to control outside & remain on top of things as when actually those moments comes , you remain mere spectator allowing that powerful time to take its own course . So in this ever changing scenes on screen of so called life , time alone the mighty king which rules always all the way ... all the time & not the people acting on the screen . Time acts through people depending on stage of the life story running on the screen , which we perceive as our own power . With time as scene changes this power shifts from one person to other , our mind trying to cling to it in desperation to control things around us bringing meseries to our mind . The fact is that all you can control is how well you let go of our control by managing our temper , emotions , ego & tounge as we face such situations . As finally you get realisation , time is the only powerful entity here . You understand futility of controlling it endlessly & mindlessly . And then only you can make peace with situation in hand knowing very well every next stage of your life demands a different you .

As you encounter such junctures in our life’s journey through such inevitable situations keeping above mindfulness & by remaining within is the way to control suffering in our mind . And yes we still need to keep walking on our own tunnel like path in search of that light in you remaining unperturbed because they say - “ The light at the end of tunnel is not an illusion . But the tunnel is ... “

Krantikumar R Rathod .